My Food Journal

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Saturday, July 26, 2008

Lazy day.

As is typical, the kids and I have just been bumming around the house today. We often do this on Saturdays- it's our day to relax.

I've been surfing around various diet blogs and trying to motivate myself. Thus far, nothing is really hitting me. I think I'm too focused on getting my bloodwork back and finding out what I'm dealing with... it's hard to push myself to do anything until then.

Friday, July 25, 2008


Still here. Still a work in progress. Just no time to blog these last few days.
One blog I read (not related to dieting) ends posts with positive and negative things that happened each day. I like that idea, and I'm going to adopt it here:

  • - Ate fast food for breakfast and lunch today and made no effort to pick healthier choices- I just didn't care today.
  • + Took the kids and myself for a walk last night around the neighborhood- we'd stopped those lately because I am always so tired and stiff. It was nice to go walking again.
  • + I also took some Aleve before bed last night and I woke up today for the first time in weeks without any pain or stiffness.... whoo hoo!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Day 3. Hopeful.

I went to the doctor. I waited two hours past my appointment time to even get to a room, then another half an hour or so to actually see the doctor. I seriously need to find another doctor-- the waiting problem happens every single time I go there. But, I like my doctor, and I go so rarely that I usually manage to forget about the horrible waiting until it happens again.

At any rate, the first thing she said was that it's very likely that I have a thyroid problem. That, and rheumatoid arthritis, which as I said before was one of my big fears. But, she said the thyroid problem would explain everything that's been going on with me lately- insomnia, fatigue, depression, weight gain, the works. She did bloodwork today and will call me next week to decide the next step. As for the possible rheumatoid arthritis, she basically said she wanted to check out the thyroid problem first, and that it's possible that it could also explain some of my pain.

I'm feeling both relieved and hopeful, which I don't image most people feel after being told they may have two medical problems to deal with. Even though a diagnosis will mean medications and other treatments, it's a start. And, if that one diagnosis explains all the things that are dragging me down lately, that would be great- we can start with treating one problem and the rest will start to get better, too. ::big sigh::

Monday, July 21, 2008

Day 2.

Still feeling like crud, still in pain, so still no great motivation to change what I was doing today diet-wise. The kids and I ran errands, washed the car... pretty typical at-home day. Tomorrow I have two medical appointments for my son, and, here's how bad I'm feeling... I feel rotten enough that I also made one for myself. I'll probably have to take both kids with me, but, right now I don't even care.

I decided to use my food journal to see just how bad it is that I'm eating these days. So it's not pretty, not leaving things out so they'll look good for others... it's just there. Truthful. Seeing it in black and white is already opening my eyes, which is just what I need.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Day 1.

OK, so after some thought, I've decided there's no point in repeating my entire food log here and at Fit Day. (I love Fit Day, by the way, because they make it so easy to enter your foods and they provide the nutritional info for you.) So, the link to my food log is above. There's also some journaling there. So there's a possibility that I'll just use that and abandon this blog all together. Or, I might use the food journal there and use this blog for the mental stuff. We'll see.

I'm in a lot of pain today. I woke up (after another bout with insomnia- didn't fall asleep until nearly 3am) feeling stiff, sore, and incredibly dizzy. I'm not sure where the dizziness came from- that hasn't happened since I was pregnant, over two years ago. The stiff and sore parts weren't surprising, though- that's happening a lot lately. I am a actually afraid that I have rheumatoid arthritis, which is probably a giant leap and not logical, but the daily pain and stiffness in my hands, hips, and legs is enough to scare me.

And no, I haven't seen a doctor yet. I want to see if losing some weight helps first. I know that's not smart, but that's where I am. And the whole point of starting this blog under my alter-ego's name is that I can be honest... so there you go.

Starting Over

Who out there hasn't started a diet a million times? I'm writing this blog to publish my food diary. When I post it online, I feel like I'm more accountable... like you people out there in blog land are going to hold me responsible for what I eat. Maybe you will, maybe you won't... either way, I'm going to test the waters with this blog.